Also I’m out of ADHD medication so this is going to be a ramble post.
I’m not going to throw shade on the person who deleted their comment because I get their frustration especially when there are so few leftists in America. I get it, it is disheartening to see people leave. I imagine that the poster feels some betrayal and I only have empathy for them. I just ask that people BE KIND because we need each other.
I’m nearly 40. I’m transgender. I came from a very abusive home situation and after I moved out I immediately got into another abusive situation, was a victim of a crime, nearly died, and spent 10 years recovering from CPTSD and undergoing intensive therapy. Thankfully I built a strong found family network who fundraised the money to help ship my ass out of America because I am eligible for citizenship in Spain. Said found family along with myself is now working to help other trans found family escape the country. We got two more leaving in October, another next year. Mutual aid, baby.
I mention my mental health history because the psychic damage of America was actively harming me. I could not take anymore harm. I’ve been through enough, and I’m sick of being unable to find a foothold in a forever home. Going into middle age means prioritizing my health and getting serious about my long term plans. This is impossible in America.
Like you, America is a place I do not have strong attachments to. I have always felt more love for the Basque Country. I thought a lot about staying and fighting. Leaving was not an easy decision and yes some part of me feels selfish for doing so, but how much good can I do from the USA? I was miserable there, I was so depressed I had trouble leaving my bed when I wasn’t busy going to work. I didn’t have the energy to help with organizing, and I could barely keep my head above water let alone help other people. Every time I felt like I was getting stability I’d be hit with random bullshit that took it all away in an instant.
For some, there is enough attachment and love for their community, culture, and country that it is worth staying and fighting for a better future. For some, they have no choice but to stay and fight. For me, America has only been pain- and I had a choice to leave and I took it. Now I will help others like me leave for greener pastures.
Super late response, I’m busy touching grass lol.
Also I’m out of ADHD medication so this is going to be a ramble post.
I’m not going to throw shade on the person who deleted their comment because I get their frustration especially when there are so few leftists in America. I get it, it is disheartening to see people leave. I imagine that the poster feels some betrayal and I only have empathy for them. I just ask that people BE KIND because we need each other.
I’m nearly 40. I’m transgender. I came from a very abusive home situation and after I moved out I immediately got into another abusive situation, was a victim of a crime, nearly died, and spent 10 years recovering from CPTSD and undergoing intensive therapy. Thankfully I built a strong found family network who fundraised the money to help ship my ass out of America because I am eligible for citizenship in Spain. Said found family along with myself is now working to help other trans found family escape the country. We got two more leaving in October, another next year. Mutual aid, baby.
I mention my mental health history because the psychic damage of America was actively harming me. I could not take anymore harm. I’ve been through enough, and I’m sick of being unable to find a foothold in a forever home. Going into middle age means prioritizing my health and getting serious about my long term plans. This is impossible in America.
Like you, America is a place I do not have strong attachments to. I have always felt more love for the Basque Country. I thought a lot about staying and fighting. Leaving was not an easy decision and yes some part of me feels selfish for doing so, but how much good can I do from the USA? I was miserable there, I was so depressed I had trouble leaving my bed when I wasn’t busy going to work. I didn’t have the energy to help with organizing, and I could barely keep my head above water let alone help other people. Every time I felt like I was getting stability I’d be hit with random bullshit that took it all away in an instant.
For some, there is enough attachment and love for their community, culture, and country that it is worth staying and fighting for a better future. For some, they have no choice but to stay and fight. For me, America has only been pain- and I had a choice to leave and I took it. Now I will help others like me leave for greener pastures.