My wife and I have life plans that make HRT unrealistic in the near future. We’re mostly concerned with fertility and my wife is still coming to terms with my identity. She understands it - she’s just grappling with the possible future changes.
In the meantime, I’m starting to do what I can to transition without HRT. Shaving. Exercise and dieting. Growing my hair out. Facial routines and hair routines. Etc.
I found FaceApp (like many other trans folks) and I’ve become a little obsessive. I take at least one photo a day and I’ve experimented with using the generated photos in private accounts for a euphoria hit. But I’m feeling like it’s making me constantly obsess with transitioning. I’m perusing trans timelines, MTF fashion, etc. on my phone a lot more than usual. Before using the app, I didn’t really have “goals”. I just wanted to get as close to feminine as possible. Now, I see this other face and I want to be her. I feel trapped in this body.
Anyways, I guess I’m just venting here. It hurts to feel this way.
Despite all of the warnings here, I’m now super tempted to check this FaceApp thing out myself…
Edit: Oh. It’s one of these apps that has 90% of the features locked behind a ‘pro’ badge. And is subscription based, not a once off payment. No thanks.
I’ve played with the app a bit. The gender setting does a lot of subtle stuff like changing your face shape ever-so-slightly. I think it’s kind of worth trying both directions, just to see how it will try and make you more conventionally attractive. Masc me was very rugged and had a very good beard, and femme me had bigger eyes, smoother skin, and pinker lips. It’s uncanny and freaky, but it gave me a better perspective on what the app is actually doing. The positive side is that it’s helped me think about how to do hair, makeup, and eyebrows.
That’s a good tip about checking it out both ways just to keep your sense of perspective and reality. What I’m hearing is that it has its uses and could be fun, as long as you keep your wits about you and don’t fall too much in love with what you see and end up with unrealistic expectations.