Well, so yesterday night i had tthe “luck” of getting to feel what depersonalisation and derealisation (DPDR) actually feels like.
I got woken up in the middle of the night to do something quite short and i almost instantly realise “Something aint right. Everything feels weird”. And then slowly I realised, what it was that I felt. It felt like I was watching someone control my body. If I wanted to lift my arm Icould “feel” felt how my brain sended the command to my body execute, and suddenly my arm moved. I felt like my true self was a few centimeters below my skin, waiting to get released from its fleshy vehicle. Everything i touched felt like i touched it with a quite big glove on. If I walked i felt like watching a stream of my body moving while sitting somewhere else with a VR Headset. Luckyly it faded away quite fast, after I was finished with what I had to do (it took 5 Minutes at max) and laid back in an attempt to sleep (which of course didnt work that well, since my mind was still processing the experience it just had).
This was devinetively the weirdest experience I had in my lifetime.
I had that happen to me once, or at least I’m pretty sure it was this. It was like I was standing behind my body, basically staring at the back of my own head, and through it. I obviously couldn’t actually see the back of my head, but I felt like that’s where I was positioned. Weird and awful feeling.