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  • People say this every time it happens, and AAA game developers have been putting out unfinished broken crap for exorbitant prices for well over a decade, now. Don’t preorder after starfield, don’t preorder after cyberpunk, don’t preorder after fallout 76, don’t preorder after anthem, don’t preorder after…

    Oh wait, there’s a new game coming out soon, I should preorder, can’t wait to play it!



  • Sorry, this is gonna be kind of long and rambly. So, I’m transfem and kinda sorta nonbinary (still figuring it out, but putting an x on my driver’s license felt the most right to me, when I did that). Been on hrt for a year, my transiversary was this past Sunday in fact, and I am turning 30 this year. Finally got on progesterone, and switched from sublingual estradiol pills to estradiol patches, and they seem fine with no ill effects so far; very exciting. I’m still not out socially (I’m kind of afraid to) so that’s kind of a downer, but I’m still way happier than I was before. Consequently, I also don’t have makeup or girl clothes. Need to get those too, but it’s rather hard, between the dicey financial situation and a home life where I’m not completely sure how risky coming out to my mother will be.

    Apperancewise, I’d consider myself a work in progress. I need to lose weight as a top priority for my health and looks, I’m very heavy. And I want bigger boobs (who doesn’t?) since my current measurements are a 44c, but while that’s apparently more than a lot of girls get in their transitions, they just look so tiny on me, between the chubby gut and the big rib cage. I was hoping I’d get lucky and not need breast augmentation to have a reasonably nice chest, but it’s looking like it’s gonna need to happen some time.

    I also definitely need to visit a salon. I’ve needed to for like the last 4 years, still haven’t been to one since way back at the start of the covid pandemic (goodness gracious, where has the time gone), but despite that, my hair is nice and long and curly, and I wear it in a cute side style, even when boymoding (which admittedly is kinda my only mode when I’m out of the house at this time). Honestly, it just kinda fits me too well, and thats like my biggest source of euphoria right now. It’s just a tad scruffy, but otherwise so close to exactly how I want it to be. I need to dye it red some time, too. I have a thing for dyed red hair… Literally every customizable girl character in every video game I’ve ever played, I’ve always gone with red hair and this same sort of hairstyle, even before I knew I was trans. As if it’s written into my very soul!

    But anyway, I also have some self conscious feelings about my face. You know, the common stuff like dysphoria about the stupid brow ridge, etc etc. So I’m thinking maybe facial feminization is something I’ll need to seek out some day too, but I am also trying to just get used to loving myself without needing surgery. I already got over my high cheekbones! But hair removal, gosh that really can’t come soon enough. Please delete every last one of these awful hairs from my chin and upper lip! I really gotta find a place for laser hair removal, and hopefully be able to afford it.

    I’ll spare any additional rambling, I’ve said a lot as it is. I think my transition is going decently, like I could improve in a lot of ways, including actually coming out and socially transitioning some day, as I said earlier, but nevertheless I’m pretty happy with the progress I’ve made since a year ago. We all go at our own pace, right?



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    4 months ago

    Hmm, I’m a little surprised at how consistent the responses are, but I guess I shouldn’t be. I just know that if I did that spam until death and pass it all on to family thing that others here are about, well I wouldn’t trust my family to adequately handle big money after my death; they’d fuck it up, the greedy shitty ones would try and steal the will, keep some other family members from getting any; just anything to not just do what I wanted, and I wouldn’t be there to deal with it.

    But regardless, since I found out I was trans, 1% death chance is too big for me. I want to live and experience my life approximately closer to how it always should have been, even though I lost a couple decades getting there. Hell, just the million dollars, even if we say it’s somehow still taxed and the fed takes a bunch, could resolve all my debts, pay for all my trans surgeries, and I’d still have more to help my family without them just fucking it all up. But I still wouldn’t want to risk the death for that.



  • Some advice, just block the users posting the politics, if your Lemmy phone app or the desktop browser version support doing so. If they post stuff you don’t want to see now, they’ll post stuff you don’t want to see again in the future.

    Me personally, that’s what I do. My mental health is in a tight spot and I don’t have the energy for the doomer shit any more, so I’d like to hang onto some of my essence, because I can just wait to go full doomer panic mode if Trump cucks his way into 2024 and starts banning trans people from life (which would affect me).

    Also it’s worth considering, a lot of these people being “no I want the Dems to lose because some bullshit” might be fucking tankies/accelerationists sneaking in here again, not all of them but a bunch. That idea really clicked when a friend of mine pointed the possibility out.

    I’m not that versed in politics because of my similar aversion to it as you seem to have, but I do know those idiots exist, are annoying and loud, and are just contrarion moron cowards who want democracy to end so they can con someone else into doing a whole revolution for them after it gets bad. Even though none of them would last through the getting bad part.

    So just block people posting uncomfy memes, ignore Internet psychos, vote in November, including local elections wherever possible, and we’ll all hopefully come out of this without too much lasting trauma.


  • I’ll probably get whooshed like I always do in this fucking place, but. Andonuts says the f slur in Toby Fox’s earthbound halloween hack, that’s the “beef”. It was released back in 2008 by a teenaged Toby, and he regrets writing that and thinks it was very cringe today, so I’m sure the idea of there actually being a problem is exaggerated.



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    7 months ago

    Unless there’s some other meaning for it, ong is some kind of slang, it’s short for “on god”. I think it’s used in places where one might otherwise say “I swear to god” instead. Of course like that other person said it could also be a weird typo, but it seems deliberate to me.





  • On my way to work, there’s a house I always pass with an “autistic child” sign, a yellow square sign, next to the road. I just feel offended seeing it. Even if the individual in question could be low functioning, inattentive, actually at risk of walking into the street or something, that sign has probably been there past their childhood into adulthood, and a sign to announce your child’s autism to drivers is just… something else.


  • I feel the same way, my block list is massive. The app I use to browse, the lemmy version of Boost, also has a word filter option too, which isn’t on the desktop browser interface (I don’t think), so I can block names of certain people and current event incidents I’m not interested in seeing any more, without needing to block communities or users. It only works when the post actually has the words in the title, so ironic memes slip through all the time, but its better than nothing.



  • Catpurrple@lemmy.blahaj.zonetoMemes@lemmy.mlMemes being used as a vent?
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    10 months ago

    I can’t interact with politics in a level-headed way, I just word-blocked the current incident and all the politics servers. It sucks not to know what’s going on but I can’t trust myself, I’ll just get emotional and make a fool of myself. Political memes that don’t use any of those words directly still come up, but at least it’s less.