Well, the egg “cracked” I guess. After 24 years, I’ve realized that I’m probably NB or trans. Looking back, I think that for a long while now, there’s been something in the back of my mind. Like a seed of doubt. I can think of any number of things that could’ve contributed to it. And it’s weird to me because I haven’t really felt any dysphoria, at least I can’t think of anything off the top of my head. But I know that there’s something off.
But anyway, over last weekend I was thinking about it a lot and after I came to that conclusion it was like this buzzing in my head that I hadn’t realized was there went quiet. And now that I know that… I have no fucking clue what happens next. The only people that know are close friends and I will absolutely not be letting anyone else who knows me know. HRT may be a very long ways (potentially 2 years, haven’t looked into it too much yet) away depending on a pending federal job.
huh, well - I like where your head is at, but I do think it’s an unrealistic expectation that the average person will 1. be able to afford the lab equipment, and 2. be able to use that lab equipment competently to homebrew their own vials safely. (Terminal heat sterilization is criticized as a method because steam doesn’t reach the inside of the vial, there is a bit of controversy on this within the DIY community AFAIK, generally the preservatives are being relied on too much in those cases. I think filtering is one way to help with the risks but there are additional complications with that, and it is onerous and takes a long time, esp. if you are filtering many vials.)
The standards realistically should be even lower for trans populations, considering we tend on average to struggle depression and executive functioning more, tend to be poor and struggle with unemployment, tend to be less educated & literate, and so on.
I guess my point is that homebrewing from raws is maybe an option for a small percent of the trans population (I would guess less than 10% of us), but realistically the people who can homebrew should probably be thinking about becoming distributors within their local communities (and picking up testosterone raws and making T vials accessible as well so half the trans population isn’t dropped). That’s a tall order (and a big risk), but I think it’s more realistic in terms of guaranteeing HRT than assuming most of us can homebrew ourselves.
Either way, it’s true that DIY exists and that OP can access HRT without medical gatekeepers (though you will face other barriers, like having to navigate grey markets that might be daunting for people who don’t have familiarity with crypto or computers). Thanks for holding down for DIY!