It’s been a wild few years. I came out as nonbinary in 2021 to my then wife, almost 5 years later to the day I realized I’m a girl. I’d spent quite a bit of time believing I’d never be a ‘real girl’, for some reason, idk probably internalized transphobia from my youth (yay growing up in friggin ohio). Today, I am happy where my transition has progressed. I feel good, happier than I’ve ever been in my body. I feel congruous with my personality, rather than like I’m trying to be someone I’m not.
The other day, I realized I was trying sooooo hard to “be myself” that I was playing up every aspect of my personality into this unbelievable caricature of myself. Today, I’m just a girl.
I should do clown makeup again, february 2024 was fun.
haha that look was for a metal show in Central New Mexico! I used to go every Friday night back then. Sometimes I still do my makeup like that but it’s rare. Makeup at all is rare these days.
As a cis dude, I’ve only done makeup a handful of times in my life for special occasions and parties and such. I cannot imagine doing it every day. One of the things that attracted me to my wife is that she doesn’t wear makeup on the day today.
I used to wear it every day because I couldn’t go passed the mirror without seeing him but then eventually I realized I didn’t care at all that people knew I was trans and passing culture was toxic as vegan farts. Nowadays I only wear makeup to feel pretty, which isn’t often, because I already feel pretty! 😺
Since stopping I have so much free time!
I am very happy to hear that you can now see you without makeup! Not that my opinion matters, but after '22, I only see a very pretty her!
Also, as a vegan, and to my wife’s dismay, I can confirm the toxicity of the farts.