As a citizen of the United States, it has become clear that I suffer from a debilitating deficit of historical and ideological education.

As I wrestle with the obstacles of understanding, comprehending, deprogramming, and learning how to identify the ubiquitous propaganda coming from my country’s institutions, I am struck by the extreme detachment of our citizens from our humanity – especially when it comes to our collective unity as human beings, and communities.

Our fracturing hyper-individuality is an obvious mental illness that our rulers are clearly pleased to cultivate.

In that environment, I find that engaging with people, even lifelong friends and family about political topics is practically impossible, because disagreements are entrenched and endless due to fundamental ideological differences. Some, who consider themselves “centrist” or “above it all”, refuse to engage with political topics altogether, or are even completely disengaged from politics of any sort.

I personally find that to be a paradox and impossible, since even a refusal to participate in politics or such conversations is itself a ideological political stance – of passive, tacit approval of the status quo. Nevertheless, I’ve discovered that it seems nearly impossible to convince even people who claim to be “there for you” or “friends” or “family” that organization against the ruling class is necessary through direct action, community building, and advocacy against systemic injustice in this country.

For me, the challenge is not just in effectively communicating the complexity of the issues involved (which includes trying to undo years of effective brainwashing, of myself and conversation partners), but also in the emotional investment that these topics require. It is painful to witness the resistance to acknowledging systemic injustices, as it forces individuals to confront uncomfortable truths about not just their privilege and complicity in sustaining the status quo – but often times even their very identity – which is effectively mired in the tribalism and nationalism deliberately cultivated by colonizers and imperialists.

Attempts to articulate the importance of unity and collective action often feel like shouting into a void, met with defensiveness or, worse yet, apathy.

Even among allies, ideological differences sow discord, but among the unconverted, it seems pretty much impossible.

What should I study? What should I read? Are there ways through such problems from within such a toxic culture?