Well, the egg “cracked” I guess. After 24 years, I’ve realized that I’m probably NB or trans. Looking back, I think that for a long while now, there’s been something in the back of my mind. Like a seed of doubt. I can think of any number of things that could’ve contributed to it. And it’s weird to me because I haven’t really felt any dysphoria, at least I can’t think of anything off the top of my head. But I know that there’s something off.
But anyway, over last weekend I was thinking about it a lot and after I came to that conclusion it was like this buzzing in my head that I hadn’t realized was there went quiet. And now that I know that… I have no fucking clue what happens next. The only people that know are close friends and I will absolutely not be letting anyone else who knows me know. HRT may be a very long ways (potentially 2 years, haven’t looked into it too much yet) away depending on a pending federal job.
Thanks! lots of reading I’ll have to do. As for a therapist, is that really something that’s absolutely recommended? It’s a little expensive and I haven’t really felt the need for one, even before all this. I’ve kinda just been existing, no real problems that I can think of, mentally or otherwise.
No problem! And not necessarily, but it’s worth thinking about. Even if you don’t have mental health problems to discuss with them, a therapist can help you get referrals and or write letters for other doctors you might want see