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I’m currently working with an agency in the Czech Republic to move to Prague. It’s been a pain in the ass compared to China and Korea, but I’m hoping it will be worth it. I have an appointment to drop off my long term visa application in a couple weeks, so hopefully I can get out soon. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

If my application gets denied, my backup plan is to get an agency to help me find a job in either Spain or Japan.

Flesh Made Fear, Subversive Memories, and Signalis were good send-ups of the early RE games you might want to check out, though they are third person games

The idea of ‘cancelling’ is public relations spin to shield people who did shitty things from accountability. A few years ago people were trying to hold people like Louis CK, Harvey Weinstein, and Kevin Spacey accountable for hurting people. Their fixers pitched it to the media as an irrational mob trying to cancel anyone who doesn’t agree with them. When people are like ‘They tried to cancel Baby Yoda!’ after there was a mild reaction to a plotpoint in the Mandalorian tv show, they’re falling prey to this manipulation of public opinion. A lot of minor celebrities claim to be ‘cancelled’ in order to appear counter-culture, but usually they’re inflating false information about themselves to make it appear like they’re a target of an irrational mob, or they’re trying to cover for true information about them. Think of the number of people who have claimed to have been cancelled in their Netflix specials, or the number of people who have been confirmed to have abused their partners and still get to come back for the next Marvel or DC movie. The reaction against ‘cancelling’ was so much greater than the reaction against abuse because people were convinced they could be cancelled at any moment for any reason, and it’s made online discourse immeasurably worse.

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I’m (re)watching through the Evil Dead movies in preparation to see Evil Dead Burn on Thursday night. Watched The Evil Dead, Evil Dead II, and Army of Darkness over the weekend. Moved on to Evil Dead 2013 yesterday and Evil Dead Rise tonight.

I know this is a shitpost, but I honestly think that was better. In the past couple years I’ve bought an mp3 player, and dslr camera, and a pocket sized e-reader, and a retro gaming handheld, and it feels so much better swapping between them when I’m doing something than just staring at the little hell rectangle for 12 hours a day.

Asking the solution to doomerism is asking the question backward. Doomerism is a rational response to the rich and powerful steering civilization directly into climate catastrophe. Oil companies have known for at least 60 years that they were negatively affecting the climate, but there’s been a bipartisan project to not only shield them from accountability, but to actively empower them to continue the destruction. All of the most powerful state apparatuses in the world serve the same death cult.

If you want to stop doomerism, you should become a green socialist. Tear down the power structures that suppress green alternatives. Oppose oil lines, oppose AI data centers, shut down the corporations, the governments, the shills. Stop letting them steer the ship toward destruction.

The solution to that “can’t find love” feeling is more complex, but it’s equally as tied up in the current state of global capitalism. Basically every major government has spent the last fifty years trying to squeeze people as much as possible to the point that everything’s expensive and nothing works. We’re all alienated, we all have various traumas handed down to us by our boomer parents and no real way to heal from them that’s not reliant on others. Our communities have been destroyed over and over again because community stands in the way of capital.

Destroying capitalism probably won’t fix the entrenched ideologies that keep us miserable, but we can’t start trying to fix the entrenched ideologies until we destroy capitalism.

Can we stop with these profiles of people who were holding “Mass Deportation Now” signs two years ago and maybe interview some annoying leftists who opposed the genocide in Gaza and war with Iran before gas was six dollars?

Hey, an actual shower thought

Universities and colleges are letting out now, so now’s a good time to start looking for trans and neurodivergent friendly housing. I’d recommend starting outside of Seattle in Shoreline, Lynnwood, and Everett, as it will probably be less expensive to live. You can always take the Link into Seattle. Look for trans and neurodivergent friendly facebook groups, craigslist postings, discord groups. Be prepared to bounce off people until you find a good place. Reach out to Express Employment or other work placement programs to see if they can find you work. If you think your BPD is severe enough to be considered a disability, you may be able to open a state disability claim and see if you can get a case manager, maybe a therapist, maybe move into an adult family home. There’s also Portland if you think the rainy weather might not be good for your mental health. Just don’t give up and try not to beat yourself up too much.

Currently in the US, my full time job pays me every two weeks (May is a three paycheck month for us). It’s a professional level job, but we’re not overtime exempt, so I only work 40 hours a week or I need to take flex time to balance it out the next week. I sometimes work 9 or 10 hour days, but that just means I get to leave early on Friday.

My part time tutoring job pays once a month, I turn in teaching reports at the end of the week and they use that to calculate hours.

When I was teaching in China I’d get paid on the first of the month, never had any problems with delays, but that might be owed to being a foreign teacher.

When I was in Korea they’d pay twice a month, with the only delay being the first paycheck where they forgot to take down my banking information and the last paycheck that I had to fight HR for.

The current connotation is a marketing term for a series of computer models that generate text, images, and video, none of which is actually artificially intelligent, but which many people have been swept up in with various promises of a future that’s almost certain to never materialize.

Liam (The Plant Slant) does short form video that’s aimed at combating misinformation and giving simple advice for forming nutrition habits

I filmed a lake with dark clouds over it a couple weeks ago for a video outro, set my phone up at the edge of a dock, held onto it the entire time. Could not stop thinking about how screwed I’d be if I had a hand spasm, or if there was a gust of heavy wind, or if the dock suddenly shook and my phone dropped into the lake.

The person who wrote that fancies themselves someone who can manipulate circumstances to their favor through means other than action, such as through social manipulation or persuasion, not realizing that sometimes conditions require changing hearts and minds and sometimes conditions require putting your body on the line.

Reading anything without the help of AI will help you become a better writer because you’ll learn new ways of using words and sentences and syntax in a way that people write naturally. It seems weird to focus on Marxism, but if that’s what gets you reading, go for it.

Libertarian used to be a polite word for anarchist, it was a contrast to authoritarian. Libertarian socialists still see themselves as part of a historical tradition as an alternative to authoritarian socialists, though that’s more European than American. Then there was a political project of European and American conservatives to redefine libertarians to mean conservatives who believed in strong property rights and a weak state.

Anarchism is a broad ideology against authority. Anarchists are against private property rights because if there is private property, there must be an authority to enforce those rights. Instead, anarchists point to pre-civilization methods of carving out individual spaces from the commons so that people can live without having to “make a living.”

There’s been a massive propaganda push by governments and state powers to define anarchist as “bomb-thrower,” or to try and make anarchist ideas seem ridiculous, but anarchists are extremely invested in people recognizing themselves as moral agents invested in communal good while maintaining individuality. if you’re interested in anarchist ideas, try reading non-fiction like David Graeber, or fiction like Ursula K LeGuin, or speeches by Emma Goldman. Don’t let people on social media’s knee-jerk reaction against anarchism turn you off. Even if you end up not being an anarchist, you can at least engage with the ideas and maybe find some stuff that resonates with you.

If they’re still alive and still benefitting from said art and still harming people, no. Any time, money, or attention you give to them enables them to hurt other people.

A couple years ago I saw a band I really liked live. They were really important to me because their music helped me get through the collapse of one of my past relationships. Then it came out that the singer had hurt multiple people in multiple cities on their tour. So now if I stream their music, or buy their merch, or even just listen to their music alone, it’ll be materially supporting a person’s ability to hurt other people.

It’s much easier to separate art from people who are no longer around to hurt other people. I don’t feel bad for appreciating Guernica or reading Infinite Jest because doing so doesn’t support the artists behind them causing harm.

Ocarina of Time is my GOAT. Finishing it as a kid and realizing that games could be more than just killing time, that they could be epic journeys with satisfying endings, that they could be a whole art form was really transformative.