People get so upset over video games like i’m just trying to escape from life’s pressures for a little bit…calm down please.

I’ll just stick to single player games tho.

“App” and “genuine engagement” are 2 things that don’t go together.

I met my now wife through myspace back when i was 19.

I went out and always managed to find some cute girl no matter where i went, but they all lacked depth and interests. Even then, i can’t even imagine what women are like now…they probably look like a phone brand logo 24/7.

We started talking because of a friend of hers, that lasted about a year until i was finally able to meet her for the first time…turns out she wasn’t acting about who she was and had been genuine all the time.

Easiest decision i ever made.

It’s been something i’ve thought about a lot, but at the moment it feels manageable to the point other things get priority.

I don’t care Netflix. Lower the cost and let me share with my retired father again.

You advertised to me i was allowed to share and then took it away, fuck you.

This seems interesting, i’ll read it fully after work if i don’t forget.

Something has me convinced i’m depressed but the only time i ever had the posibility to look for help they sort of just worked me towards the door and cut me off asap.

But they ended up giving me some sort of anti psychotic medication, which definitely allowed me to get back on my feet at the time. (Shit was dark, i fell in a hole with covid, homelessness and unemployment alltogether with my wife and reached a point where i struggled so much i couldn’t even get my ass to a job interview).

But i still don’t know what the cause of my struggles is, only that they’ve been around as long as i can remember. Some form of psychotic whatever wouldn’t surprise me either looking at my mom and what she did. But from what i know (which isn’t a lot obviously) it seems more like depression.

When i was working out people started complaining i was too buff, when i wasn’t working out people complained i was too skinny.

When i’m fighting for my goals people complain i’m trying too hard and when i’m not they are complaining i need to do more.

It’s never right with them…hold on to those compliments, they are few and far between.

I had a convo on instagram with some guy (who turned out to be some kind of coach for life goals or whatever) and he started praising me for recognizing a certain hardship and it turned me off from conversing with him…it made me physcially cringe hearing someone praise something i did.

I’m probably a little messed up lol

Breh, what kid? I just discovered some people make half my rent and live a more meaningfull life.

Btw we live in small appartment, not some luxurious private island you’d expect for that kind of money.

Fuck this economy xD

It was reported a decent amoint of time ago and i thought i felt a difference…turned out my isp was sending air bubbles through the internet cable.

After the internet stabilized i noticed exactly zero, just an occasional “restart browser because video’s stopped playing alltogether”

I don’t know if it’s scary, but in the absolute core of my existence i just need my life to stop sooner rather than later.

I’ve always been a bit suicidal leaning but when i was stopped i never had the courage to try again.

Every single day my mind tells me “would’ve been better if you did, it’s all a big shitshow anyway” it never misses a day. I keep telling myself to not listen to it but i do agree.

I had a certain circumstance a couple yeara ago where i was close to dieing and it brought me peace…i felt calm and became accepting of what was to come (despite the intense pain). Wife calles an ambulance which they refused to send as we were too calm for it to be believable, so we took a taxi and that’s when they got to see the pain i was in and realized time was running out quick.

Bla bla bla etc etc, i got sent home a while later and the same pain returned…excruciating bone wrenching all encompassing pain and all my mind had to add was: “if this is real, just go to sleep and you won’t have to wake up again”.

And i did, despite this absolute tormenting pain i fell asleep so peacefully and convinced of it all ending…it was such a relief.

But i woke up after…shit.

That’s the darkest corner of my existence.

I still miss og tumblr and my little porn account i had going there.

I know, it’s really annoying when you just want war and someone helps you out to fix it all

Seeing how this article exists, you’re already too late.

Let’s go, i need it haha

Abaolutely, it’s obvious where it came from.

I have my own, different issues especially socially. It’s bad enough she has to deal with that, sometimes i wish it wasn’t an issue because she has so much potential past that unlike myself…so i hate watching it be like this.

My wife has this, she’s incapable of breaking rules.

Let’s say her employer to do things a and then b, but then a coworker tells her it’s better (in practice) to do it the other way around…she’ll get an error and stop functioning at all.

I was told all these scary things about life and always had this: “i’ll see it when i get there” attitude. So now i have to spend half my energy dragging my wife along otherwise she’ll forget to live life.

Even worse: “popey mc popeface”

You get it, last week we sacrificed 10 minutes of our break…not a single positive thing was said, we got shit on for taking the remaining 5 minutes.

Pay me a decent wage if you want to treat me like garbage, i already hate being there when people are acting normal.

I solved that by moving to pc and forgetting about Nintendo’s existence.

I found a way already, it’s called patience. Works well for basically any non nintendo game.