Stressed, exhausted, ready for vacation/more hw time. A company reached out to recruit me, but there are rumors about the skill assessment being very difficult, and frankly I’m ass at math and math word problems. It also might not be 100% multiple choice, so chances of me passing are even slimmer.

So I’m accepting that I’ll probably fail and continue with my current gruesome plan on finishing my design portfolio… which hasn’t been making progress because of all the jobs and full time school I do.

I don’t think I’ll celebrate Christmas with anyone this year. It’s always been my favorite holiday, but currently it’s a painful reminder of how messy and confusing my relationships are right now. I don’t think my bf is going to visit me even though he said he would— bad economy, after all. Just really sucks when we’ve talked about it a lot…and it was what I saw as the light at the end of this hellish tunnel of a semester. Oh well.

I don’t know what I’m looking forward to right now.