tl;dr - cannabis is an important pillar of my life. the same is true for many millions of other people. and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
it hit me while masturbating in the shower, i’m never going to be completely sober. i need drugs to function as a member of society. and that’s alright with me.
i also know, more importantly, that there are millions of other people like me all over the planet. most of us just hide to survive.
edit:
i only smoke concentrated cannabis. sativa strains preferably.
i don’t consume any other drugs. i used to. but not anymore.
i used to regularly consume alcohol, caffeine, LSD, MDMA, shrooms, cocaine and salvia divinorum. nothing like the DMT and designer psychedelics of today.
i feel fortunate to have lived through my own experience of drug culture and walked out the other side.
I was high for 20 years almost 24/7. I made some life changes and these days I get high maybe around 10 times a year. And those times that I do, its special and not just ordinary. Life is so much better when my brain can operate at a higher capacity. Not that I couldn’t cope while high - I was fine, but definitely not optimal, especially with short term memory. I guess if my job was not that demanding of mental clarity it would be a different situation.