tl;dr - cannabis is an important pillar of my life. the same is true for many millions of other people. and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
it hit me while masturbating in the shower, i’m never going to be completely sober. i need drugs to function as a member of society. and that’s alright with me.
i also know, more importantly, that there are millions of other people like me all over the planet. most of us just hide to survive.
edit:
i only smoke concentrated cannabis. sativa strains preferably.
i don’t consume any other drugs. i used to. but not anymore.
i used to regularly consume alcohol, caffeine, LSD, MDMA, shrooms, cocaine and salvia divinorum. nothing like the DMT and designer psychedelics of today.
i feel fortunate to have lived through my own experience of drug culture and walked out the other side.
So, I have PTSD and a whole other laundry list of disorders, and weed is the only thing that ever helped with the exhaustion from hyper vigilance and obsessive thinking, nightmares, appetite, muscle tension etc. without horrendous side effects.
I’ve been sober for like 6 months or something and it’s been miserable. It’s so not worth it it’s not even funny. I’m even less capable of working a job or even just doing house work. THC is a miracle drug for a lot of people and it’s fucking criminal that’s it’s illegal and demonized the way it is.