Me trauma-dumping on Lemmy…
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No one reads these things anyway so it’s fine.
I do. Unless it looks like an AIgen wall of text. Then nope.
I sometimes overshare my depressing thoughts, with random people. I probably should stop doing that, lol.
Gotta let the darkness shine.
Perfectly honest: I’ve said some things so cynical that I’ve caused kinda random people to be quite uncomfortable and I hate that.
I genuienly do not care and am not worried about my tendency to overshare.
If you can’t handle me at my oversharing, you don’t deserve to be my autistic hyperfixation.
For real. Just be yourself and fucking get over your infinite insecurity. Literally no one cares. Your personality probably isn’t that off-putting if people continue to voluntarily speak to you.
Me in the shower realizing I misgendered someone again
My memory sucks, so I rely on other people telling me my stories back to me, I’m using them as an archive.
These days I think about past situations as little as possible. I used to be convinced you need to pick that shit apart in order to process it but I’m starting to think the opposite might be true.
What I noticed is that I really only remember nothimg but bad things when I am in a bad mood and only in a good mood I am even able to remember the good stuff. So yeah it’s probably more helpful to bring yourself into a good mood right now then wear yourself down even more.
Yet, I do believe in depth psychology helping overcome childhood trauma. But it is not working in the way most people think by talking about it but by subconsciously reenacting it with the therapeut in a way we can solve it emotionally because the therapeut reacts in a better way than the primary caregiver did in the traumatic experience.
Forgetting is second only to acceptance, yeah. Left to my own devices I’ll just fixate on the past, replaying the scenes and emotions over and over like that one Black Mirror episode.
I wish I didn’t spend so much of my time in the past.
I used to be the same. It starts with the conscious decision to remain focused on the present. Meditating also helps.
Thanks, that is genuinely nice to hear. Was there any particular type of meditation that worked for you?
Yea, embrace it. Think about the most ridiculous things you’ve ever heard other people say. Oh, you can only remember maybe 5? 10? Realize that the one dumb thing you said is most likely not on the list.
And if it is? Congratulations you made an imprint on someone else. You’ll be remembered.
I can remember way more than 5-10. :(
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“This will surely fuck me over in some way I can’t predict.”
That’s a problem for future me to deal with.
Me, at least 3 times per day
Single digits, lol
