I was using an old plasma screen from around 2008/9 for a while until my girlfriend’s sister’s exboyfriend stole it. Their dad gifted me a 55in 4k tv that wasn’t bid on at an auction he was running. That plasma is probably gonna burn down Shithead’s place at some point, it was pretty sketchy.
I deal with the same thing. I had written for several small publications, and one way I overcame my disconnect from emotion was just by stream of conscious describe things. The way I’m subconsciously describing it tends to reveal my feelings for it. Directly, i really feel nothing for it but under the layers I do have a sense of emotion for it.