Red_Eclipse [she/her]

Being sick and somewhat sedated by medicine is enough to be sort of “drunk” and make typos. :P

But in terms of like, getting actually high, yeah you can’t just get codeine but there’s cough medicine that’s like, pure DXM and people use it as a deliriant.

I actually thought you might have been high on cold medicine again lmao

Nah, rising up against fascist colonizers is awesome and worthy of celebration. I don’t give a fuck how it “looks” to zionazis and their pearl-clutching libs.

I can’t believe he just chugged a gallon of cooking oil lmao

Thanks, that helped me feel better.

All the food is poison

I entered the SAVE thing and then got put in forbearance, what does this mean for my loans?

We have a monstrous evil government that literally steals babies.

I used to believe in all 4 of those things. It is painful when the illusion is shattered, so many avoid it.

At most, I can gently suggest that we’re actually the bad guys, not the good guys, and people are starting to agree with me.

What is this from?

A 14 year old already being watched by the FBI? Wtf

Wow I was unaware of that day. I don’t know very much about the religion. Thanks for the article, the pilgrimage sounds pretty cool.

the Arba’in pilgrimage was banned by the Iraqi president Saddam Hussein (r. 1979–2003)

Wow up until getting to that point I was reading about the significance of the tradition and it sounded so cool and then apparently he did that. That was like such whiplash. I was like wait he did what?? No wonder they didn’t like him, damn.

In fact, I think I’m going through the despair part at the moment.

It really had to happen for me at that point because

In marxist terminology, I could no longer tolerate the contradictions of liberalism in my mind.

I relate to a lot of this, and I do wonder if it’s an autism thing. Because like, I see a lot of lefties complain about libs as if they know they’re thinly veiled fascists and are just pretending/virtue signaling etc, and they’re always linking roderic day’s thing about propaganda. But my experience was just nothing like that. It’s like… no, I literally just did not know lol. I always had good egalitarian-like values, and I was fed so much bullshit that I was just naively a liberal. I was a radlib for sooooo long because of all the other western ‘leftists’ being stuck in electoralism, defeatism, ‘human-nature’-ism etc. The final thing that pushed me here was:

Wait, you mean communism ISN’T when no food?

Wait, you mean communism actually DID work and wasn’t just a 1984 animal farm dictatorship ???

Wait, you mean it wasn’t us libbies on the “right side of history”, it was always the socialists, and basically every good historical ‘great man’ idol that we look up to (MLK, helen keller, einstein etc) was a socialist too??

THE COMMIES WERE RIGHT THIS WHOLE FREAKIN TIME???

Because my entire life I’ve been taught commie = evil, like, they’re just The Bad Guys. It’s drilled into your head. And then when you come up with something like “hey why don’t we provide for everybody and make things fair?” it’s always: “Nah, that doesn’t work, it’s been tried, and human beings are just too selfish to make it work.”

And that had younger me like "Oh, okay… :( "

And our entire culture, media, news, history education etc is SUCH A FUCK that it took THIS LONG for me to finally get some real facts and be like wtf are you kidding me?!?!? The “villains” were right this whole time?!?!

Maybe it is like an autistic myopia for us. Maybe most people aren’t like this…? I know it’s more accurate that people’s ideology follows their material interests, and for most of us westoids, our material interests are the empire staying an empire. And you could say that because I’m disabled, that means my material interests 100% align with the abolition of capitalism, therefore here I am. But there’s definitely an element of like, bruh I did not KNOW. I wish somebody had told me sooner. But it’s a wasteland out here in the west. I ultimately had to figure it out for myself.

And I’m glad I did, because unknowingly being a “communist waiting for permission to be one” is depressing as HELL man. I saw the BS of electoralism, reforms obviously were not working, I knew the necessity of revolution but I could NOT believe that it was ever possible, like the belief that humans are selfish and it just never works was so ingrained. So I literally felt like there was no hope. Absolutely nothing. We’re just fucked and this is it and we’re powerless to do anything about it. Total capitalist realism. The bleakest view of reality. Did you also go through this phase of utter despair like I did?

Why block VPNs?

Do they just… not understand that we’re an evil empire funding/arming these “foreigners” for their genocide so we can stay an empire or what?

I wouldn’t be surprised if they didn’t understand that, cuz I didn’t either until recently. The whole US education and propaganda apparatus really makes you just think that we’re a strong powerful country but that we don’t directly do imperialist/colonial shit, and that the reason the world is in turmoil is local problems etc.

Still though, even before I understood this dynamic, in the face of an actual genocide I would feel compelled for us to “do something” about it, like literally anything.

It being a settler colonial state means that a sufficient reform of its structure would no longer resemble what the United States of America looks like anymore, and so, it would cease to exist

Sorta like Israel. If you fixed its issues it wouldn’t be a Jewish ethnostate doing genocide anymore, so then it wouldn’t be Israel anymore. It could just be Palestine with everybody living in it.

America’s really big though so there would be land given back to lots of indigenous groups, possibly breaking up into smaller countries, etc.