When Joel has to choose to save Ellie from having the brain surgery or not in The Last of Us. When Monika in Doki Doki Literature club removes other characters in the game from the player’s file + when she breaks the 4th wall. “It’s just a prank, Han!” from Until Dawn.

1. Was strong enough to overcome the harsh realities of dealing with heartbreak and depression. It took a lot of nights crying myself to sleep, days fighting with my suicidal thoughts, and my “inner demons” bashing negative comments to myself to finally have a calmer mind.

2. Got my driver’s license after after having a panic attack. I passed on the 3rd try, but I had a panic attack on my 1st in public at the DMV and had a total meltdown in front of strangers on the 2nd try because I failed. I was learning how to drive while being heartbroken after being dumped by my ex. So, I was extremely disappointed in myself that I failed the behind the wheel test because I really did give it my all, my best effort to learn while being depressed as shit, but received a failing grade in the end.

3. Learned from my failures. And is now a much wiser person than I was 3 years ago. I grew up because of my break-up and failures. Aka, growing pains. I learned a lot about myself, learned how to heal, how to deal with pain, suffering, and mental health + gained different perspective about life/relationships, gained new friends and is (slightly) happier than I was 2-3 years ago.

Graduated high school in 2021; I was about 16/17. For me, my senior year of HS wasn’t that bad. Sure, we all couldn’t physically be with one another, but I didn’t really mind. I’m a person who likes to hang out by myself than with other people most of the time. But if my friend wanted to hang out, we go on video calls. I actually prefer online classes. I didn’t need to wake up so freaking early to try to stay awake for 6 hours everyday and come back home to study for 4 more hours. I got to walk on stage when I graduated (all wearing masks tho). I’m just glad I got through high school because I didn’t really enjoy it (people there were okay/nice. It was the curriculum that made me dislike HS–in America).

Currently, I’m in my 5th year of Uni studying studio arts, but is thinking about going to trade school at my community college for welding because it’s harder for people who just graduated to get into (entry level) creative positions, the studio job isn’t what I want anymore, and visual development for animation is oversaturated/extremely competitive. I survived the pandemic, but I’m struggling to survive this current semester because of feeling jaded in studying the arts, still depressed, and lost my passion for creating stuff, but is slowly regaining it back. Overall, trying to figure out young adult life (now 22) and trying to keep my worrying about my future/career to a minimum.

My ex bf was a car guy. He got me interested in it and took me on my 1st midnight drive. BEST. NIGHT. EVER. We snuck out of our houses to go driving down LA. It was SO much fun–playing our favorite songs, speeding, seeing the city lights! Wish I could do it again with him. After we broke up, I view cars as a my love for him so I kept my hobby/interest. But it took me awhile to view it that way because cars reminded me of him which equals sad.

Also I’m an artist interested in illustration/concept design. I find prop design (specifically vehicles and weapons) fun to draw. So as a designer, I would research how things work like the mechanics to get a better understanding of the functionality of said object like cars. And I like how some sports cars look with all the sharp spikes and cool gadgets-- a fuel for my inspiration/imagination. And I just like learning new things.

Yes, I use Lord of the Rings: The Shire Theme (Concerning Hobbits) Epic Version by Samuel Kim.

https://youtu.be/cFC6v1UrPn8

I graduated high school during Covid