I wanted to be an artist. A concept artist. But I have some motor issues that are quite invisible when you look at me, but they do prevent me from writing with my hands, and because of that, everyone around me discouraged me from even trying.
It’s a wound that just won’t heal for me. I have images in my head that I wish I could get out, but I can’t. Every time I try to draw, it doesn’t look like what I want and every time I do, I have the voices of the people who tell me that I shouldn’t even try because it’s not worth it and I get immediately discouraged.
Every time I want to try and get serious about drawing, I pick it up and I last like one or two weeks max before being discouraged and giving up because I keep hearing what I’ve been told. I’ve been doing that for like 15 years now. And in 15 years I have made pretty much zero progress with the way I draw.
Maybe you have already tried this, but if you can get a hold of an iPad and the app Procreate, please try it out. You can customize your different brushes in ways that I think might help with your particular mobility issues (e.g. add more stabilization, remove or alter the pressure sensitivity). You can also do things like draw a curve but hold your pen down, and then it smooths and turns into a shape you can resize or change the arc of. Same with lines (wiggly become straight).
That’s so frustrating, you have an incredibly creative mind but a mobility challenge meaning it’s not straight forwards. You’ve also got people preventing you, when it’s YOUR brain and body! I’m disabled too and I said “urghh yeah” out loud when I read your post. Someone’s disability might stop them doing something but the main thing that stops them is other people. It’s just not on.
I wanted to be an artist. A concept artist. But I have some motor issues that are quite invisible when you look at me, but they do prevent me from writing with my hands, and because of that, everyone around me discouraged me from even trying.
It’s a wound that just won’t heal for me. I have images in my head that I wish I could get out, but I can’t. Every time I try to draw, it doesn’t look like what I want and every time I do, I have the voices of the people who tell me that I shouldn’t even try because it’s not worth it and I get immediately discouraged.
Every time I want to try and get serious about drawing, I pick it up and I last like one or two weeks max before being discouraged and giving up because I keep hearing what I’ve been told. I’ve been doing that for like 15 years now. And in 15 years I have made pretty much zero progress with the way I draw.
Maybe you have already tried this, but if you can get a hold of an iPad and the app Procreate, please try it out. You can customize your different brushes in ways that I think might help with your particular mobility issues (e.g. add more stabilization, remove or alter the pressure sensitivity). You can also do things like draw a curve but hold your pen down, and then it smooths and turns into a shape you can resize or change the arc of. Same with lines (wiggly become straight).
The artist wound is so real. ❤️
That’s so frustrating, you have an incredibly creative mind but a mobility challenge meaning it’s not straight forwards. You’ve also got people preventing you, when it’s YOUR brain and body! I’m disabled too and I said “urghh yeah” out loud when I read your post. Someone’s disability might stop them doing something but the main thing that stops them is other people. It’s just not on.