For context: I’m a young adult, I don’t think I have any serious brain issues yet.
But I’ve recently been just trying to remember the past and although its kinda tragic, there are very interesting moments and I want to keep these memories forever.
But brains aren’t perfect, and I’m just so scared.
Even re-reading the events from a journal woudn’t exactly be the same as remembering it.
Idk, I’m kinda just obsessed with some memories for some reason. Don’t wanna let go of it. Having this “backstory” (for lack of a better term), is what drives me forward, without those memories, like if I get a concussion and forgot everything, I wouldn’t really be… well… “me” anymore, and the thought of that is terrifying.
yes and no.
I remember everything. well, I guess it’s better to say I remembered everything.
until 2020 I remembered everything and had a near 95% recall. after I got covid and stress/anxiety ate away at my sanity it’s more like 80% now. My age is also a factor.
remembering everything, every detail, did me more harm than good honestly. all the embarrassing moments in my life from my first class recital in kindergarten where I fucked up my lines to the time a hooked up with a “dead fish”.
I’m on the other side of my life now and most the crap I remember isn’t worth it.
there are some good memories I’d like to keep, but when I do finally forget them (and I will forget them), I won’t even know I forgot anything at all.